its been awhile sincei ‘ve posted anythiing on here.I finally wet to mental health and told the truth for the first time in my life about how im feeling. i mean i’ve told people bits and pieces over the years but i’ve never told anyone everything and it was hard to admit alot, but now that its done im getting help they started me on meds to help with my anxiety and mood swings and depresion and so far i feel better. i have a long way to go till im me again but for the first time in years  feel like i can have a future that i will be happy again..its gonna be a long hard road but  know i can do it.

how come  always manage to find and date assholes  with stocker tendances i mean if someone blockes you from having any way to comunicate things how do you not get the hint to leave them alone this guy keeps buying me shit online and sending it to me with notes that say im sorry.wish he would just leave me alone. have a feeling that if he hadent been sent to afgan in this rotation then he’d be followng me around like a lost puppy..down side his rotation is almost up so  have to deal with him for the last part of this deployment :/ cant wait to be home and far from him …….  No more relationships for me im done